I feel like being angry is something that we choose to be. We’re in control of our emotions so when someone says something that we don’t like or does something that we feel is targeted towards us, we get mad and want to do something that we may or may not regret. I can’t say that I haven’t done this because I have, many times. I’ve allowed people to get to me and ruin my whole mood just by the things they would say, which then led me to doing something careless in the moment. This is something that can’t be continued because it might seem like you’re not tolerating any disrespect, but it’s also showing people that they can ruin your whole day just by saying something to you. I talked about this before and it’s called people having control over you. You see, once people have control over you they have control over your mind and having control over the mind is a dangerous thing. Now, I can’t teach you how to control your emotions because honestly that’s something that everyone has to figure out on their own. But, what I can say is that we have to be aware of what triggers our emotions so we can learn to control them and not lose control over them.
Inspirational quote of the day:
Is attention-seeking bad? Most of the time when someone posts something or does something we think “Oh, wow they are just doing it for attention.” And now it’s to the point where it’s considered something bad. It’s considered something you shouldn’t be doing. But, what if attention-seeking isn’t something bad? What if it could be something good? What brought me to this idea is the fact that many people in this world feel lonely. Many people feel as if they have no one to talk to. So they go out looking for “attention,” just so someone could notice them. Just so they don’t feel lonely anymore. So you are probably thinking to yourself “Well if attention-seeking could be considered a good thing, then why does everyone treat it like it’s something bad?” The answer to that question is this. It’s because those who usually judge people for attention-seeking are usually the ones who want attention as well. They are just too scared to go out looking for it. By attention-seeking people no longer feel lonely. They no longer feel like no one notices them and they feel complete because a hole within them has been filled with something they were missing and that was attention. So, when we encounter someone who seems to be attention-seeking let’s ask ourselves why might this person be doing this before we begin judging them. Because everyone has their battle to fight and we all fight them in different ways. Some just do that by attention-seeking.
Have you ever told yourself that you’re going to focus on yourself? From now on you will eliminate distractions. So you get started and you are good for a week. Maybe a few days, a few hours, then boom! Something happens and all of a sudden you get distracted. All of a sudden you’re focused on something else rather than the goals you have set in place. You see, this happens to me all the time. For example, I will tell myself that I will go up to the post office today or I will do laundry today and sooner or later an excuse comes into place or I get distracted and forget what I said I was going to do in the first place. For a while, I use to beat myself up about it and be like man you need to grow up and learn to stay focus because all these little kids’ games you’re playing need to stop now. But honestly, they will never go away in a day, a week, a year. Hell, it could take years for them to finally go away. Now am I willing to wait a year to see if they will go away? The answer to that question is no. I will not wait for a year to see if they will go away because I don’t even know if I’ll be alive in a year. Not that I’m speaking death into existence or anything I’m just being real. Life is too short to wait to better yourself when you could be taking small steps now to do so. It all goes back to the training of the mind. You must train your mind to be able to focus on the goals that you have set into place and the only way to do that is by getting out there in the field and getting dirty. Yes, you’ll make mistakes doing so. Yes, you’ll fail sometimes. And yes, you’ll forget certain things in the first place. It’s what makes us human because we all fuck up sometimes. But, what will separate you from the rest is that you are willing to go out there and fail and make mistakes just to achieve the goals that are important to you. But it all lies on how you train your mind to do the things that you said you would do.
Growing up money was something that wasn’t always there at times. Having to deal with three boys plus my stepdad, my mom had a lot on her plate so at times my brothers and I wanted to make it easier for her. She would always say “No, I’m fine just focus on school and stuff I’ll take care of everything else.” We always knew everything wasn’t fine, but my mom wanted to keep things away from us because she didn’t want us to worry about the things she was worried about. She didn’t want us to worry about bills, being kicked out, or transportation. She wanted us to focus on our dreams, goals, and not put them to the side because of the events that were happening around us. Now it’s easy to drop everything and worry about taking care of your family back home. But, it’s hard to go out there in the world and make something out of yourself so you can be able to take care of yourself as well as your family. I think it’s hard because while you are out there trying to make something out of yourself, your family may still be struggling but you feel like there isn’t anything that you can do to help since you are trying to find a way for yourself first before you find a way for them. So, then you stop what you’re doing and get a job close to home so you can give all that money to your family and not have anything left for yourself. Sometimes making the hard choice is exactly what your family needs from you. They need for you to go out there and better yourself and once you have made it out you can come back and show them how you did it. Because staying home to help the family isn’t bad at all, but how much help will you be if you are doing the same things they are doing to survive? This is why you must be different, you must find a way, and you must be willing to choose the hard choice over the easy one because that is how you break generational curses. And that is how you free your family from this survival game that we are all a part of. Because at the end of the day that’s all it is just a big game of survival that we are all playing. But instead of surviving, how about we start thriving. I’m sure then we could help our family help themselves in so many ways.
You see I’m a skinny guy but I’m not as skinny as I used to be. Because I didn’t realize how important working out was to me until I reached my lowest point. I reached a point in my life where I was just fed up. I was fed up with people not picking me on their team because of how I appeared. I was fed up with the demons inside of me telling me that I was nothing. And most important of all, I was fed up with looking at myself in the mirror and thinking wow is that it is that all that you can bring to the table? So, I wanted to prove to myself that I can bring more to the table. I wanted to prove to people that you are going to regret counting me out, and I wanted to prove to the demons inside of me that they were FUCKING WITH THE WRONG PERSON! I used exercise as not only my come back, but also as a way to improve my self-esteem. I wanted to build my confidence up, I wanted to appreciate myself more, and I wanted to not think of myself as a twig again. Now I still have a lot work to do but I am happy with how far I have come. I used to weigh around 150lbs but now I weigh 172lbs. I use to struggle with certain weights, but now I use those same weights for my warm-ups. Now the point of the story is this, find a way to help yourself improve more. Step out of your comfort zone and do something different that will help you improve yourself in ways that you couldn’t imagine. Because I know for me working out has helped me improve myself not only physically but mentally. So, I am happy I reached my lowest point because I found something that helped me rise up from it.