Suicidal thoughts is something that not many people talk about. When I was in the navy I did research on suicide just so I could learn more about it. Back when Covid was at an all time high, the suicide rate for the navy had increased by 11%. Now any increase, no matter if it’s 0.5% is still a bad thing but it just had me wondering why? Why are some many people committing suicide? Couldn’t they just ask for help? What seems to be bothering them so bad that they would want to do such a thing? I personally felt like suicide was honestly an easy way out. Let’s be real, life is hard. It doesn’t matter if you are rich or poor you will go through your own personal struggles. You will face problems and sometimes you will feel like you are all alone. You will go through things that not many people understand and if they do then what are they to do about it? Because suicide is something personal that must be done by you. Only you can decide whether or not you will do it or not. Now, I personally have had many people in my life tell me that they wanted to commit suicide. Now, at the time I figured they were just joking because most of them would just say it in a joking way. But, it wasn’t until the cuts started appearing that I realized that this person might actually be serious about it so don’t take it lightly. Now, I have learned that most people who want to commit suicide will tell a friend or family member, and they would expect for them not to tell anyone. Now for those that don’t tell anyone, they can’t be blamed for it because they probably didn’t want to break the trust between them and the person, or they just didn’t know what to do. Most people don’t realize that by telling someone that you want to commit suicide you are putting a lot of weight on that person’s shoulders because now they have a choice to make: do they go tell someone else so you can get some help or do they keep it to themselves? Now, I say all of that to say this. Suicide whether we like it or not will be used in a joking matter by many people but, it’s not meant to be taken lightly. People could be joking about it to your face and the next day they could be dead, and you would be the one living with the fact that you could have helped this person out if only you knew they were serious about it. But that’s the thing, you didn’t know and it’s not your fault because nowadays suicide is just another thing that people make jokes about. I’m not going to lie, I make jokes about it and I still do it from time to time, but I understand that suicide is something very serious and that if someone comes to you about it don’t just brush them off but listen to them. Even if it hurts you to hear them say these things about themselves, listen to them. You could be the one to guide them to help, so that they can help themselves because you don’t want to be another “What if I could have done this” story. Everyone goes through something, not many of us understand, and not many of us care. But if you could be someone who could help someone change their life around would you? There could be people that you know and see everyday that have suicidal thoughts, but if one of them told you that they wanted to commit suicide what would you do?
I feel like being angry is something that we choose to be. We’re in control of our emotions so when someone says something that we don’t like or does something that we feel is targeted towards us, we get mad and want to do something that we may or may not regret. I can’t say that I haven’t done this because I have, many times. I’ve allowed people to get to me and ruin my whole mood just by the things they would say, which then led me to doing something careless in the moment. This is something that can’t be continued because it might seem like you’re not tolerating any disrespect, but it’s also showing people that they can ruin your whole day just by saying something to you. I talked about this before and it’s called people having control over you. You see, once people have control over you they have control over your mind and having control over the mind is a dangerous thing. Now, I can’t teach you how to control your emotions because honestly that’s something that everyone has to figure out on their own. But, what I can say is that we have to be aware of what triggers our emotions so we can learn to control them and not lose control over them.