Random Thoughts Part 2

I feel like being angry is something that we choose to be. We’re in control of our emotions so when someone says something that we don’t like or does something that we feel is targeted towards us, we get mad and want to do something that we may or may not regret. I can’t say that I haven’t done this because I have, many times. I’ve allowed people to get to me and ruin my whole mood just by the things they would say, which then led me to doing something careless in the moment. This is something that can’t be continued because it might seem like you’re not tolerating any disrespect, but it’s also showing people that they can ruin your whole day just by saying something to you. I talked about this before and it’s called people having control over you. You see, once people have control over you they have control over your mind and having control over the mind is a dangerous thing. Now, I can’t teach you how to control your emotions because honestly that’s something that everyone has to figure out on their own. But, what I can say is that we have to be aware of what triggers our emotions so we can learn to control them and not lose control over them.

Letter To You

I saw you rise above the doubts you tried to disguise. I saw the tears that you kept hidden within your eyes. I saw the potential that you thought you never had. I saw your love fade away after everything went bad. I saw your strength when weakness tried to cover you like rust. I saw you over work from dawn until dusk. But I must say after everything I have seen, that you must continue to press on until you reach your dreams.

Mind Over Matter

I saw a quote earlier that was talking about how someone could be used by God, while at the same time battling with their sinful habits. I want to talk about this because I myself have to battle with sinful habits, while also serving as a man of God. You see, one of my biggest problems, that kept me from achieving what I wanted to achieve, was distractions. Now, distractions could be a good thing or a bad thing depending on the situation, but my distraction was something that I have wanted to get rid of for many years. I just haven’t been able to. You see, lust was something that was a burden on me even though I haven’t had sex, I would still think about it all the time. I told myself many times when I find the right one for me, I would give her my all and that included sex. Now growing up, porn was always something I use to distract me from just going out and trying to have sex with any female. Seriously, I wanted it bad but I wanted it to be with the right one because the Christian side of me wanted to wait, but the other side of me wanted to just say fuck it and go for it. So, I resorted to watching porn because I figured hey you want sex, but you want it with the right one how bout I just use porn to handle the lustful thoughts. Now as time went by, watching porn became a habit for me because whenever I thought about just having sex, I resorted to porn that way I wouldn’t just go and talk to a random female with the intensions of just having sex. You see, I thought it would only last one year, but as time went by it was something that kept being going on and soon I was watching porn everyday. Now, since I am 20 years old I have realized one important thing, and that important thing is that instead of wasting my time on trying to get rid of lust by watching porn, how about I try another technique. So, the new technique that I tried was writing. You see, writing helped me slowly get rid of my lustful thoughts, even though some are still there, at least I know I’m trying. So, what I’m trying to say is this, if you are someone who has sinful habits, but you are trying to get close to God or you are just trying to stop. I want to let you know that it’s going to be hard. It’s going to be hard to get rid of bad habits because you are so use to them. It’s going to take more than a day, a month, and maybe even a year before you start a new habit. But you must begin. You must begin because wasting your time on sinful or bad habits is just that A WASTE OF TIME! We have so much more to life than just watching porn all day or any other bad habits that isn’t contributing to our growth. I had to learn that you must become strong and fight it off because it’s going to come around again just to test you, but when you learn to strengthen your mindset, even when those habits come back around, you’ll be able to take on anything that comes your way. So, find a way to stop the bad habits you are going through. Because you can’t expect any growth if you are still in the same mindset you are in. Because if we keep the same mindset, we will remain stuck in the situation we’re in.


Managing your day can be easy but it also takes a lot of work. You see, if you are someone who works a 9-5, but is also trying to follow your dreams it can sometimes be hard to find a set time for everything. You see, since being in the navy I not only learned how to focus on my job in the navy, but I also learned how to focus on what I want to do when I leave the navy. You see, I believe that if you want something you’ll put in the time and effort for it, but if you don’t you’ll just make a excuse for it. You have to think of it like this, there are twenty-four hours in a day. Now, yes you work a 9-5, so you may think that takes up most of your day. But here’s the thing, that’s only eight hours you have spent, which means you have sixteen hours left of that day to work on things you haven’t had a chance to reach yet. Now, this doesn’t mean that you have to cut off spending time with your friends and family it just means you have to manage your time wisely if you want to accomplish so many things in one day. You must remember that time doesn’t wait or stop for anyone so use it wisely. Also remember DON’T SPEND MOST OF YOUR TIME WORKING FOR SOMEONE ELSE THAT YOU FORGET TO DO THE SAME FOR YOURSELF. We have to learn that in order to take care of someone else, we must first take care of ourselves. So, remember to use your time wisely because you’ll never get it back. You just have to do your best with with the time you have.

Sometimes you get tired of being nice

Have you ever been so nice to people only for those same people to turn around and treat you like shit? When you do all you can for someone and in return you get criticized for it? Well it has happen to me too, more than once. You know, I tell myself that I’m a nice person and even when someone is mean to me I’m still going to be nice back. I tell myself that I will not treat someone how they treated me, because two wrongs don’t make a right. But to be honest it takes so a lot out of me to not snap, it takes a lot for me to not want to harm them. You see, I realize you have to love people for the good, the bad, and the ugly. At the end of the day you must love them, but at times I get fed up with people. I get fed up because I get tired of being name called when I made one simple mistake, get fed up with people not realizing that no one is perfect, and that we all makes mistakes. And I get fed up with the reality that no matter what you do, how nice you are, and what you will become in the future people are always going to judge you for it no matter what. I would be lying if I said it’s easy to face it because it’s not, it’s really hard as hell to forgive someone who has hurt you. But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try. So I say start, start forgiving those who have hurt you because many more people are going to hurt you. I hate to say it but it will happen. But at least now you can start preparing yourself, so that you can make peace in your heart.